A fond farewell to Granado Espada

Dear readers,

Marta and I sincerely apologise for the sudden redirection of our RP efforts followed by inactivity. Much has happened after Christmas which have changed our interests in life and for each other, and so have we retired from public light.

This blog was created for our own personal development and as a medium of communication should real-time measures fail. For that it has served us admirably, and so in this state shall it be preserved for all who stumble across this small dusty book in the vast archive of the Internet.

To those who question the beginning of our lives together, know this - there is no point believing in myths and trends regarding the Internet no matter how tempting is it to label it "BAD" or our interests "LAME". An influential tool was made available for me to provide assistance for the needy and I did so for I wished another not to suffer my horrid coming of age years as I learned to spread my wings and fly.

That time may be long past.. but I still remember everything. And I have the power to prevent the repeat of history that occurs far too often for that insulting indifference and complacence prevailent in modern society.

If you see a potential problem, engage and prevent it.
If you see a friend in need, go and help. That is why you are a friend.
Lying to yourself by pretending nothing is going on simply proves that your manhood is pretty much inexistant. That is all.

Three months ago I was but a slave to society who had long forgotten his identity from living in the corporate rat race that is "all talk no action". Today, I am but the humble servant of a noble princess who not only appreciates all the time I spent on her (it is considerable, I assure you), also uses her newfound knowledge and power to guide my development as an adult.

I once said that our roles would be reversed... and this year shall be a life made anew for her as well.

I will just close this blog with the following statement.

It may have been a long and painful quest mending your broken wings, my angel, but all that was lost for your sake has paid itself off a million times over. I will always remember you, should anything unforseen happen, as the woman who transformed herself from helpless to reigning queen in three short months... by simply daring to fight the lies and horrors of her past.

And you did it yourself!

Long time without writing

Its been awhile i dont come here

due to lack of words and stories

but now a reall life begins

with you at my side

on a new world

u made me really happy

this last days

i know sometimes i was stuck

but now i am not any longer

"The Once Broken angel descended from the sky , dared to fight her fears from past again

along with her new friend that came from the flames of hell, she changed him and he did the same , are now departing to another world , close to her heart, along with her he helped on the blockades that were blocking her way to fly again to her home . "I Came to erase my sins and to erase my past memories and im ready to make new ones "

"The no longer broken heart angel is flying home with her friend of their path .....

"She in return said thank you for beeing there for me , wherever u go ... i go to .."

We can only trust ourselves

They did not care last year when time and time again they ignored my silent pleas for help against discrimination. Nor did they stop to think about the utter stupidity of sending a patrol unsupported into a high threat gang infested neighborhood. So I am really glad that we are somehow still here for one another. But where as children we are bound to our elders commands as adults now we are responsible for more than just ourselves. We have no obligation to follow foolish directives and if they do not wish to see our rationale then it is our god given right to make them learn before more people die for their incompetence. Have no fear of taking control for that is what we should do to protect those who rely on our skills, my queen. And so this way we shall control our fate and ensure that we see each other at the end of each day with a clear mind that says... I know you will be back, you are doing everything you can to return to my side. Know this my desert rose: I only pray for one thing each day and that is your health.

We can only trust ourselves

I will never let you go.

What ever caused you to act like you did yesterday, I beg that it would never end. I never danced with anyone before too, but amazingly we did not stumble upon each other.

I have a little surprise for you. Now you can send me messages anywhere, anytime, and it won't cost me a single cent. So my love, you will never be alone again.

I could not let you go too.

Dear Marta, I would confess that many a time I wished to leave you too but everytime was hurt by you something forced me to wait for you to return. I suffered so much for you in the hope that you would pass me some of the pain you bear in your heart and soon I realised that I had bitten off more than I can chew. But still I stayed, for I believe you deserve a life that respects that sharp beauty and regal voice which I love so much, not treated like everybodys doormat just because you prefer to keep to yourself. Now I would reward my reigning queen with anything she wants and you are well worth it too! You have the initiative to think of others too and so I never questioned your decisions. I trust you with all my secrets since we started our courtship and unlike any other, you honoured the deal. And in return I will forever be faithful to you.

A new Year . A new life .

My dear , friend

first of all Happy new year

i wish u the best of everything

best of luck

and with alot of good things

and health

I wont ever forget of wath u did for me

last year

u said i saved you

but u were the one who saved me in the end

where everyone left me

even so my heart told me to not let you go

and it was right and now i understand why

This year it will start a new life

a happy life i hope

and im sure it will be

as long u are there for me like im going to be there for u

when u feel down

i wont ran way from my destiny

if the other lost their lifes for me

to keep living

u and i will live and continue their legacy

See you soon :)

So it begins this New Year

If you would be my loving wife Marta, I would be your loyal husband for all eternity. Never will I stray from the path of the light, for we both know firsthand the price of following the devil.

I would quit my favourite hobby of horse racing just for you my love... so that you may live free from worry. And my work days as a facility manager gives me plenty of time to write to you.

Yes, I inhabit a different body, but I am the same person who rescued you from that horrid life of a waitress to grant you a profession of honor and responsibility that I knew you would enjoy.

Our meeting will come sooner than later, my desert rose. Somehow, we will find a way. And I will be there waiting for you. And you'll recognise me a mile away :)

Finally. My wish a decade old has come true. I hope it is the same for you as well.

A confident asnwer ..

I allways wanted to be by your side , i loved you

but u were once married with a son , so i lost my courage to tell you my feeling for you

even so u tooke the bullet instead of me and u saved me and i felt my life was going to collapse

i never trusted anyone than you

u taughted me so much and i wanted to thank you for everything

but God tooke u away from me before i say that

u were very dear person to me the most kind men i ever knew

But maybe God toughted u deserve a second change on the living world

i dont care if u are in a different body or not

i want you , to be here with me

even if i have to search you im sure i will find u someday

in this world

I miss u and i want you .

so i will say yes to your question

YES i want to be your wife

I want to see the kind smile on your face again

Until we meet again

I still remember the song we loved and i still love that song

"Somewhere Only We Know"

I walked across an empty land

I knew the pathway like the back of my hand

I felt the earth beneath my feet

Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone?

I'm getting old and I need something to rely on

So tell me when you're gonna let me in

I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree

I felt the branches of it looking at me?

Is this the place we used to love?

Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone?

I'm getting old and I need something to rely on

So tell me when you're gonna let me in

I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go

Talk about it somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything

So why don't we goSomewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone?

I'm getting old and I need something to rely on

So tell me when you're gonna let me in

I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go

Talk about it somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything

So why don't we go

So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything

So why don't we go

Somewhere only we know?

Your last chance to say no, Marta

Dear Marta, there is something I wish to warn you about as your friend and brother. You may know this already and you can say that I am a nag but I would like to give fair warning of my intentions. This new year brings much new hope for us both and I have helped you a lot in securing a proper life for you yet what I do is still incomplete. I have not yet cured the wounds of your broken family and your lost friends. Yes I know what you are thinking. That it is impossible for me to survive that fatal bullet that I took to save you. The only thing on my mind then was to save you. You do not deserve to die. You have so many years to live. Please dont let her die, I begged the Lord, take me instead. And so it happened, and He creator of all mankind gifted me with this new body in order to continue my mission in this world, so rife with sin that such as I give their lives to try and make a difference against the forces of Satan. To show the world of Man that righteousness shall always prevail over temptation. Five short weeks was all it took for my return to this world. i have seen many things and learned many more during my eternal patrol. And most of the time in coma I dreamt of you. I know what you are going through and I am well prepared to fight by your side once again. Never have I felt so confident in helping you build a new future... But it is only courteous to ask your permission. Would you, Marta Alexandra, have this man who cheats death as your husband so that I might undo what wrongs that have been unfairly dumped on you? You know me. I will not accept failure. Nor will I see my daughter being ill treated by those who call themselves men but only in species. You are much more 'manly' than those moral cowards. Imagine that!

A new life for someone more than a friend.

Marta you had your reasons for rejecting me and I respect them. I am very proud to be your friend as time and time again you prove to be a mature and responsible lady who is not afraid to voice her opinion to defend her rights. You are a very different person from the time I met you and your current troubles with me arise from you exercising your newfound confidence and authority. There is nothing wrong with making mistakes and causing people hurt. All good leaders rise to prominence that way. It is through those teething troubles and through the will to presevere through those difficult times that you will develop your character. So dont be afraid, you may use me as a learning resource anytime! By the way we have gone so far that anyone who has an interest in social support would be amazed by how far we went. It is truly a wonder, the human mind that another who understands may heal it of all its wounds with time. I am not a psychaitrist but as my first and most successful patient I will remember you always. Yes you heard right. I believe that what we do to support each other may be used to assist those with similar issues in life as well. You may not notice it but your psychologist (me!) frequently asks your help too! Having experienced some of what you went through in life yesterday made me a cold and offensive person but you brought me back in good time and am thankful to have you at my side always. I will tell you now that the new year will be very different. I would also like to attempt increased responsibility to remedy the last of your current troubles but I shall need your help in playing that role. We are rushing things but we have the experience and the mutual understanding to make it work.

I did it again ......

Here i am again , writing this , trying to trow up everything that is stuck on me

its so hard, for me saying this things and see my only friend suffering for my mistakes , i keep doing bad things and i ...really dont want to be like this but sometimes i cant fight it alone like i used to fight ...when i lost my friends i toughted well now it will be hard and in the end i will die from my own mistakes and sorrows , but my destiny changed somehow and i must thank you for that , u keep seeing things i cant see my self becouse im blind from past where i was rejected by so many ppl ... after this months i could smile again and trust again in ppl .... i really know how is to be lonley ...and i dont want to be like that and kill my self ...

and i know to this days i have been to much selfish and i only could think on me and not for the ppl around me ....why is it so hard for me to realize that in time.. ppl say i think to much and its true some of my memories i cant forget in one blink .... and i really dont want to hurt my only friend that i have now .....the one who cheer me up when im down and listen all my dark secrets

i really ...i really dont want ....

i really dont want to lose my best friend .........i dont want to end up alone again without no one to talk .......i......i........

im scared to be ending like that .....even if u r far away from me u r still close to me here on the place i cherish u the most .....

Forgive me .......i may not making sence

i really felt bad playing on your feelings ......i should have told u wath i was thiking from the first moment

I just ....hope u can be still my friend ....

i have nothing more to say ....that was the things i couldnt say when i was with u .......im sorry

Thank you

Carmen you wont be rid of us so easily. Youre very dear to us and we need each other too. And I will never be bored of your beautiful voice singing in my ear. I know you are not comfortable with such flattery and thats why I shower you with praises. Youre really very beautiful and you should not be living that cruel life of your past that gives you this horribly low self esteem. That is what we are here to correct and we hoped you enjoyed your time with us last night. I would wait forever for the honor of your warm breath in my ear again, Varghese says.

No longer in silence ....

Dear Rosa , and varghese

i dont know wath happend yesterday to me , i realized my mistakes ...i also realized i was soo cold towards u sister and u my love , maybe i was having a bad day or its my tiressness speaking trought me , i was stuck on my emotions i couldnt feel anything or think or express my self , some part of me told me they are worried about me and wath i give for them nothing becouse for now i am a cold bitch i cant give them wath they deserve my head wasc really heavy and my heart to i was completly stuck .....

Rosa , Varghese im so sorry ...i dont want to have more discussions with my favorite sister and u my love im so sorry to i .....hope u 2 can forgive me in time ....But today after a good night of sleep i feel better and refreshed ,today i can think on wath i did yesterday and i could see how cold i was .....plz i hope u both forgive me ......

Help

Rosa here. Today I realise the hard way that trust is foolish. I am good. I can prove it each day at work. And this makes me nothing but livestock to the eyes of any employer without a strong moral backing. It appears that even the security industry is not secure in its own ethical footing despite its huge responsibility. I am now a villian because I dare to speak up in the name of justice and pride for what others trained me so hard to achieve. But sister I will not run away this time. My conscience is clear and I feel naught but strength in protecting those who trust me with their safety. So Carmen please be there in my moment of need for you are my only pillar of hope. I am so sorry to cause you so much hurt last night I should respect you more. You are not my dog... That is what learned today. And that is my gift and apology to you.

In distress

In distress

Varghese is concerned

Dear Carmen, I am sorry to hear that you had a quarrel with Rosa last night. She isnt taking it well and has been very quiet today keeping to herself. She has not been eating too. Would you please tell me what happened that would make her like this? Its sad to see my sister like that and I wonder at your own health as well. i know that I have no business meddling in the ladies affairs but please... We have limited time together as it is lets just enjoy it.

Varghese work day blog

While my first day at work was incredibly boring, a combination of social networking, on the job training coupled with prior experience with managing crisis situations have made this day a thoroughly enjoyable experience. Perhaps I should not be so cynical - today the colonial residence I am charged to protect had a major shortage in defense capability due to the captain and our best officers being absent. So on the third day of my new duties I suddenly find myself taking on the role of assistant site supervisor. Due to the aforementioned manpower shortage I had to face great physical challenges running to keep up with events and sheparding foreign contractors to their assigned places of work. As the most physically and socially well endowed person on the team it is my responsibly to lead and instruct them. Unlike that disappointing spell in restaurant management though, this job pays extremely well for the fun I get running my own show and juggling with my favourite responsibilities: people management and public relations. It does help that I now have a beautiful wife who appreciates whatever I do for a living too!

Florence post ^~

Hi you all should know me. Or else, find out or I will be a bit pissed. Most of you wouldnt be here if not for my little acts of heroism in Tetra during the initial scouting efforts. I am not surprised that the underground facility has still not been secured. Pioneer managers should pay more heed to respecting native property and cooperate with them instead of thinking the world is theirs for the taking from so called divine authority that is created by the blasphemy of a selfish Church. I am a witch due to such lack of religious morality and I am proud of it. Here in the New World freedom is indeed a common virtue.